life just hit me in the face

it has totally been a few months.
Its been a crazy few months for sure.
there is just seriously so much going.
i don't even know what to think.
but i feel like my mind is always running.
but i don't really know what i am thinking about.
I have so many mixed feelings going on!
Its crazy, i graduated from hair school.
1.I am now working at the gatehouse and nannying!
i love nannying. i wish it could be my life career serious though, its my favorite thing ever. You want to know why? because being loved by a little kid... is honestly the best feeling in the world. Every time i see there sweet smiling face just makes me so happy!
I think it keeps me distracted from that fact that nick is gone. its really weird. Lately it has felt so much harder then any other time. I think it has felt just the same as when he left.
Really i have no clue what to do about it. i Feel like a hopeless little girl hiding in a 19 year old girl body. Its like i am screaming for help, but i don't let anyone in.
Also i think its just hard because i feel like me and nick are not that close... i don't know how to bring us closer. its really hard cause the distance kills you! I seriously never thought it would be this hard without him.
i guess that just shows how much i love him,
But i can do this. Only 11 more months! that is so short!
Also 23 days till i get to talk to nick.
Which will honestly be the best day ever! i cannot wait for christmas!
I hope that it will be normal, like its like we have never been apart before? you know?
But i guess we will just see. 23.

peace 

out 

girl scout

Just a SWEET love STORY...

ONE DAY I HOPE TO HAVE A SWEET LOVE STORY LIKE MY GRANDPARENTS. 

they are the cutest couple in the world...... 

and my grandpa is so madly in love with my grandma. 

they are the sweetest people in world. 

i wish i was born in the 50's. 

look at how cute they are... just so madly in love.

one day i hope to be like this cute couple

to find the one i want to spend the rest of my life with... 

and be just as sweet as this cute couple here. 

i love you guys. see you one day again. :) 

ugh.....

hi miss you.
430 days to go.
my love.

Say hello to my Little friends i call Dall & tiff

This is the reason of my title. meet my best friend dallas.

Yes this girl is gorgeous right? if only you knew her like i do. 

So for some odd reason sometimes i can't sleep through the night. i really have no clue why... 

but it happens to dall all the time. So i know i can always text her. ha So i texted her and well she was awake... so we decided to make a denny's run at 1:30 in the morning its the best time to go anyways. 

So we went to denny's and we ended up just talking and catching up! 

Dall is that best friend that you honestly could tell anything and she would never judge your or anything. She seriously just listens and tells you what she thinks. 

She always has the best advice ever. 

Tonight we were just talking about how everyone is leaving on missions... 

It is just crazy to me how much we have changed over this past year.

Its crazy to think that tiff is going on a mission in 6 weeks! 

Tiff is one that fills the whole and started this whole friendship. 

short story ready go.

tiff was my best friend... she was dalls best friend, well we all just started hanging out.

And look at us now. 

Thats tiff down there. yes i have gorgeous friends! 

a little bit about tiff! She is the funniest girl you will ever meet.
Ha when you get the three of us together we can never stop laughing.
She seriously is the glue holding are laughter together.
This girl seriously is amazing.
She honestly gives the best dating advice in the world and always just knows things are going to work out. This woman calms me done and makes me have fun!
Then there is me...

No to much about me, i just always was the one that drove us around town...
late night taco bell and denny trips of course..
So we could party the night away.
Also we always slept at my house....
 I was the mom of the group
 i always made pancakes in the morning.
It is just nuts to me that us three can look like those pictures up ^^^^ there......

when we used to look like this a year ago...
Time totally makes you look better. Haha.
But the truth is that is when we are having the best time... is looking like that.
I love these wonderful Chicka's with all my heart!
i Know that know matter were we go in life we will always come back and find each other one day!
Thanks for being the best friend a girl every ask for! i love you girls so much!
I always got your back.
its 4:20 a.m.
i should
go
to
bed.
goodnight
blogging
world.
so
long.
sweet
dreams.
or
good
morning,
blogging
world.
:)

just turn off.

wow it has been a really long time. since i have written! crazy! lets just say i haven't really been feeling it! Right now i am just going to complain! i just want to turn off my brain. i have a thousand things going on in my brain and i am just sick of it. Sometimes i wish i could just go to sleep and wake up and have none of my problems going on in my head. IT would really make life so much easier.... but life isn't supposed to be easy right? anyways thats about it for tonight. maybe i will write a real blog post tomorrow about what has been going on in my life! besides that.....

peace 

out 

Life of a !9 year old girl...

So pretty much everyone i know is either getting engaged or going on a mission.
everytime i get on facebook i swear there is a new engagement! which is awesome props for you girls that found the love of your life.... ha its just crazy to me. then the other half are girls announcing where they are going on there missions. ha lets just put it this way... look at the picture below.

Haha pretty much describes what me and hailey think about it. Honestly props for all you girls doing what you are doing.... ha me and hailey are partying it up at the riv.. ha oh the good old riv. 

Want to know something about the riv? every step you take, the floors squeak, so its impossible to not to wake up anyone. Then we have this ugly puke green carpet it. but I'm living with it because there are some great things about the riv. I love having a hot tub, honestly love it. 2. are bedroom is huge 3 closets, really three closets. yes 2 girls need 3 closets. 4. We have awesome couches. 5. we don't have a key to the apartment so i never have to worry about loosing that which is amazing. 

Besides that i get to to talk this guy  tomorrow!

 Its crazy! Everytime i think about i just like melt.. ha it brings back all these memories from us. 

Its crazy that we are already to mothers day. i mean i remember when it was christmas and was just thinking now i have to wait till mothers day. Then mothers day is tomorrow?? what? It feels like he has been gone for ever. I am so nervous to talk to him... my stomach just drops. I think i might just be pacing the whole time... waiting for the phone to ring. just keep waiting. 

well its late and i should sleep. 

Can't wait for tomorrow 

;) 

love 

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distance

H.e.L.l.o I.t.s B.e.E.N l.O.n.G

Wow. it has felt like forever since i have blogged. crazy how fast time goes by when your busy!
The last 2 weeks have been really busy! Just working everyday! But on monday i moved out! its weird to think that i have even got to this point in my life. I mean sometimes i feel like i just woke up for school in the morning. its crazy how fast it goes. Besides that lets meet my roommate! Hailey this chick is the best! ha we Went to high school together but we never hung out once in high school. which really doesn't make any sense because we seriously have so much in common its nuts. ha but i guess god does have it all planned out. this is hailey right below.

Sometimes we have a little bit to much fun with my mac... 

here is some more pictures. 

She is seriously the best roomate in the world! 

ha my other roomies well they are chill... very follow every single b.y.u rules. 

We will see how long i will last with living under b.y.u housing haha 

I haven't been to the ward yet, so we will see how that goes! 

Besides that my best friend has been out 6 months?? 6 months?? really? where has the time gone! 

I look back and remember the day he got his call like it was yesterday? and i remember the day he left like  the back of my hand. ha now that is a story i should tell. So sweet and so sad.. but so worth it! 

This is How Elder draper is doing lately! 

Thats him with a cow leg.. 

no he didn't eat it. ha gross.

Thats him and some of the missionaries! 

He just got transferred to this new city! one of the richest city's there! 

Hopefully he will get to meet some new people! he has a Latino companion so that will be awesome for his spanish! 

But it gets better, 9 days 9 days!!! till i either get to skype or talk to him on the phone! 

Is that really like happening?? its crazy! the last time i talked to him on the phone i was like crying my eyes out! ha i am so excited. i can't even hold it in! I'm so nervous at the same time... everytime i think about it i get the biggest butterflys in my stomach. But i know it will be awesome. even if we only get like 10 mins! that will be better than nothing! 

So the countdown begins 9 days! 

i think i am going to explode! 

Well thats about all that his been going on. 

Elder draper i love you. 

Stalkers thanks for stalking.

Love

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Distances

B.Y.U. ZoObIeS

 Have you ever met a byu zoobie??? well thats what tiffany, dallas and i call them! 

So tonight my friend Hayden he is a dj, he was doing is thing for a charity dance, it was free so Dallas, hailey and me went and hit it up! i walked in and felt like i was at e.f.y all over again. 

1. there were people dressed up i mean girls in church skirts and some guys in fancy white shirts and ties. 

2. There was water for the drinks. 

3. They had, treats ( like candy and cookies) 

4. There was a total of 5 people there when we got there. 

6. When people actually came, nobody really danced. Just pretty much did the hitch dance. ( if you have seen hitch you would know what i am talking about. ) IF you haven't seen hitch thats just sad.) 

7. I'm pretty positive they played a slow song.

8. Hayden the dj wasn't aloud to play any music that swore. 

9. there were more girls than boys. 

10. last but not least all of the boys looked like tall skinny 13 year olds i swear. ( it was like i was hanging out with my little brother.) 

So dallas, hailey, and me couldn't handle it we decided to hit up the thrift shop party at an actual thrift shop. That place is actually really cool! We danced the night away and met some crazy kids. 

And of course we end the night with taco bell. 

Adios. 

p.s. tiff you missed a fun night. :) 

PeAcE OuT

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GiRl ScOuT

just my thoughts :)

Sometimes i just miss you more than ever.

I miss hanging out all day long, then when i would get home we would talk on the phone for hours.

i miss the way you held my hand.

or  told me i looked pretty when i was wearing sweats and hadn't washed my hair days.

I miss it when you would sing country songs to me. 

i miss when you would tickle me to death that i would almost pee my pants. ( sometimes i would.) 

Or the time you farted in front of me and you turned bright red, and i just kept laughing! 

The way you kissed my forehead.

Or how every time we said goodbye i would blow you a kiss and you would catch it. 

Or how i talked all the time and you would just listen.

or when we would start a movie and within 5 mins we would both be asleep. 

but then again sometimes i feel closer than ever to you. 

even though you are 7,000 miles away. 

Its crazy how the lord works in that way. 

i just miss my best friend. 

the church is true. 

missionary's are amazing.

Pray for them. 

the 

end. 

Love 

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conquers

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distance.

Just One of those quote days....

Love

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Distance

SuNdAy FuNdAy

Hello blogging world! its been a while....
Okay maybe like a week, but still this past week has felt like 2 months!
Really i worked so much at both of my jobs, but it good to be busy it makes time go by faster.
Also it makes me appreciate sundays so much more. IT totally is my day of rest for sure!
It really is my favorite day of the week!
 i get to sleep in, get to go to church, get to do laundry which i hate but, oh well.
 I get to eat food and wear sweats all day and not do my hair. which is my favorite thing to do. So sundays are seriously the best! Also i get to email nicky poo every sunday night! Its crazy how much changes over a span of 5 months! So many things happen! Even just in a month! Like for instance.
Guess who is finally being a grown up and moving out of the house! YUP this girl is! WHOO! I am moving into the riv! in PROVO! for the summer, hopefully it will be good! I thought to myself with my 2 best girlfriends both planning on going on missions i am going to need some new friends. maybe some that don't all leave on missions. It will be a good change for me! to get out and see what its like to live the " college life!" Its also dirt cheap so i don't mind at all! I don't  really like to spend a lot of money on things when i know i can get it for cheap. ( thank you dad for that. )
 It will also help me learn how to live with 5 other girls! What I'm i going to do... ha i already have a hard time getting a long with girls. Probably because i tell everyone how it is and well if you are a girl you know how girls are.
So this will for sure be a good change.
Change is hard, but its good!
anyways i'm going to bed so tired,
peace out girl scout.

Love

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Conquers

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distances

Day 4 in mexico Rainy :(

So what do you do in mexico on a rainy day???
you still go swimming.
because out of all the pools here there is one heated!
So you go swimming, maybe do you hair for once. which really is funny with me because if you ask anyone that knows me i never do my hair..... never. ever.
Which is Crazy because I'm in beauty school.
Anyways back to the main reason.
Ha i decided to blog because it has been raining here all day in mexico!
All day!
When you share a room with 4 people, you really don't want to be stuck in the room all day! I mean don't get me wrong i don't mind sharing a room.
But when its you 2 boys and another girl. Interesting things happen.... like.....

 1. boys shave and leave there hair in the sink which is very gross. 

 2. There is no fan in the bathroom or air freshener... well you all know where thats going.

  3. Sharing beds we have a king size and 2 singles. 

  4. Sharing a bed with the girl is not that bed but we switched to the singles last night and Definitely not as comfy has the king size. 

  5. Boys complain about the beds because they are to big or just picky about the bed. 

  6. I have know clue how i am ever going to get married and share with a boy all the time ( i guess i will love that boy very much. ) 

Okay i'm done with my little rant...
I actually i'm having so much fun in mexico! i love the beach and the sun! Totally my two favorite things ever! Really happy to be out of freezing utah! SO all you utah people i'm very sorry you are sitting in the freezing cold when i am in the beautiful sun!

                               Just a little bit of mexico... took this the first day, but i promise i am tan!

                Just to add a little bit! nick ^^^^^^ up there is doing pretty good! 

He just got a new companion! American i think, i mean davis seems pretty american name? 

well put all the missionaries in your prayers. 

That's All today folks :) 

Love

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Distance 

When life gets hard >)>)>)>)>)

Having a missionary is probably one of the hardest thing any girl or boy, or family could go through. Also you HONESTLY don't know what its like unless you have had one. IT really has been hard with nick gone, but honestly one of the best experiences ever. I'm so proud that he went and really just amazed by him and all missionaries in general! I have no clue what they go through everyday, but thank you to all you missionaries out there who serve the lord and are changing the world to be a better place.  

This is a poem that my friend found and well i stole it from her! Its sorta long but, read it! Send it to all the missionaries you know and I'm sure they will love it! 

Thank you nick! 

The alarm rings at 6:30; I stumble to my feet. 
I grab my companion's bedding and pull off his sheet. 
A groan fills the room, is it already time to arise? 
It seems like just a second ago I was able to shut my eyes. 
The morning activities follow - study, prayer, and such. 
When it's time to leave the apartment, you feel you haven't accomplished much. 
"We have a super day planned," my comp says with a grin. 
I lowly utter a faithless breath, "Yeah, if anyone lets us in." 

With the word of God and my faithful Schwinn, we ride off in the street 
Prepared to face another day of humidity and heat. 
It's 9:30 in the evening, the day is almost through; 
My companion and I are riding home, not accomplishing what we thought to do. 

We ride up to the mailbox, hoping to receive a lot. 
Only to look inside and hear my echo reverberate "Air Box." 
We go up to our apartment, the day is now complete. 
The only thing to show for our work is a case of blistery feet. 

It's past 10:30 PM, my companion is fast asleep. 
Silence engulfs me all about and I begin to weep. 
In the midst of sadness, I kneel down to pray; 
I need to talk to Father, but I'm not sure what to say. 

"Oh, Father," I begin, "What happened to us today? 
I thought we'd teach somebody, but everyone was away. 
My hands, my aching hands - worn, hurt and beat; 
If our area was any smaller, we'd have knocked every street." 

"Why on missions are the days so much alike? 
The only difference about today was the flat tire on my bike. 
Will you send some cooler weather? The heat is killing me. 
I sweat so bad, it gets in my eyes; It's very hard to see." 

"Why do I have to wear a helmet, isn't your protection enough? 
People always laugh at me and call me stupid stuff. 
Please send us investigators so I may give them what they lack; 
I want to give them Books of Mormon, the weight of them hurts my back." 

"And what about my family? They don't have much to say, 
I'm sick of not hearing from home, day after day after day. 
Oh Father, why am I here, am I just wasting time? 
Sometimes I just want to go home, I'm sorry but that's on my mind." 

"My companion, Heavenly Father, what are you giving me? 
The way he rides his bicycle, I don't think he can see. 
Now you have it, I can't go on, I don't know what to do; 
That, my Father in Heaven, is the prayer I have for You." 

My prayer now finished I stand up, then jump right into bed. 
I need my rest for tomorrow; we have another long day ahead. 
Sleep starts to overtake me, I seem to drift away, 
Then it seems a vision takes me to another time and another day. 

I'm standing alone on the hill, the view is very nice; 
A man walks towards me and says, "My name is Jesus Christ." 
Tears of joy well up inside, I fall down to His feet, 
"Arise," He states, "Follow Me to the shade - you and I need to speak." 

My attention's toward the Savior, total and complete. 
He says, "Your mission is similar of what happened to Me, 
I understand how you feel, I know what you're going through; 
In fact it would be fair to say I've felt the same as you." 

"I even know how you felt when no one listened to you. 
At times I felt not quite sure what else I could do. 
I know you don't like to ride a bicycle, for you a car would be sweet; 
Just remember the donkey I rode wasn't equipped with 21 speeds." 

"I understand you don't like sweating, in fact it's something you hate; 
I remember when I sweat blood from every pore, oh the agony was great! 
I see you don't like your companion - you'd rather have someone else. 
I once had a companion named Judas who sold my life for wealth." 

"It's hard to wear a helmet and have people make fun of you. 
I remember when they put thorns on my head and called me King of the Jews. 
So you feel burdened down by the weight of your pack. 
I recall how heavy the cross was when they slammed it on my back." 

"Your hands hurt from tracting and knocking on doors all day. 
I guess when they pounded nails into mine, I ached in a similar way. 
It's hard not to hear from home when your family's not there to see; 
I lost my communication on the cross and cried, "Father, why hast Thou forsaken Me." 

He embraced me with His arms, His light filled me with His love, 
With tears in my eyes I watched as He went back to the Father above. 
I stood with awe and wonder when a beep rang in my head, 
I listened and heard the alarm, then realized I was in my bed. 

My companion let out a groan, "6:30 already, no way!" 
I sat up and said, "Come on, I'll even carry your scriptures today!"
No matter what we go through, when we feel we can't take more,
Just stop and think about Jesus Christ, He has been there before.

I really don't know what i would do without the gospel in my life! Just remember he is always there for you! Missionaries we are thinking about you and you are always in our prayers! 

Nick Be a strong missionary i know you can do it! 

Love

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Standing In Circles

Sometimes i feel like i am standing in this small tiny circle.

and i am just standing there spinning in circles watching life fly past my eyes.

Sometimes i just wish i could make the circle stop spinning. 

Sometimes i just wish i could sleep and dream all day so i wouldn't have to deal with reality.

But if only you could really do that. 

But in all reality. 

I love that i can't stop the circle from spinning.

because to be honest it makes time go by so much faster.

Which makes life easier at some points.

This morning i was just thinking its crazy nick has been gone for almost 4 months. ( next sunday will be 4 months which is so crazy to me.) But it makes me so happy at the same time. I could just run in circles all day long. 4 months that is a long time if you really think about it! 

So its crazy how fast time really goes when your life is running in circles. 

But that is pretty much what life is. You are just either in the small circle standing there watch everyone around you move. Or you are in line with everyone moving and just keeps running in cirlces.

4 months down and counting.

Love 

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Distance

Music Keeps the heart beating.. Falalala

This how i feel right now! This band is seriously my new favorite band. i could listen to there music all day long. thanks to my friend dallie she seriously got me addicted. So Feel free to start listening, i love them.

Mumford and Sons

I will wait

Well, I came home
Like a stone
And I fell heavy into your arms
These days of darkness
Which we've known
Will blow away with this new sun

But I'll kneel down,
Wait for now
And I'll kneel down,
Know my ground

And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you

So break my step
And relent
Well, you forgave and I won't forget
Know what we've seen
And him with less
Now in some way shake the excess
Now I'll be bold
As well as strong
And use my head alongside my heart
So tame my flesh
And fix my eyes
A tethered mind freed from the lies

And I'll kneel down,
Wait for now
I'll kneel down,
Know my ground

Raise my hands
Paint my spirit gold
And bow my head
Feel my heart slow
'Cause I will wait, I will wait for you

Love 

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Conquers

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Distance

3 months and 5 days!

 Days like today, make me miss this guy more than ever. 

For just a couple reasons. 

(First thing is first, whoever reads this if you don't know who this is, well this is elder Draper! 

He is serving in the Uruguay Monte Video West mission, before he left on his mission we dated for a year and half? that is so crazy to even think, but i love him to death! And now he is serving the lord and being such an Amazing Missionary! ) 

anyways back to what i was saying.....

1. With everyone that has missionaries leaving, it just reminds me of the day he left ( and how it was probably the hardest thing i have ever done.) man i sure do feel for those girls and wish the best for them! 

2. I got a new job! which is so Accawesome! < ( pitch perfect) But getting something this exciting is never really as exciting as it was if he was here so i could tell him. It was just so different with him! Don't get me wrong I'm super excited for my new job! 

3. Sometimes i just wish i could call him on the phone, i just miss having that best guy friend! i got my girls they will always have my back, but its just different. not the same. 

4. I just miss having a boyfriend period. It was always so nice to know that when you were having the worst day ever or you just feel like crap, you could go to him in sweats and your hair stinks and you don't have make up on, and he says things like ( why are you so darn cute today babe?) Then for some reason that little thing always made you feel so much better. 

5. Holidays are harder too. I mean Who really Likes Valentines day anyways?? haha 

At the end of the night i think about him and i just have to tell myself that you know what it really will be all worth it in the end. I know he is out there doing what he is supposed to be doing! I know he loves it too! I mean look at that picture ^^^^ up there??? He is having the time of his life! I love going through this crazy journey together, that really nobody else will understand. Its kind of like our own little thing. Its Pretty crazy when i think that he has been gone for 3 months and 5 days! It actually went by fast! 

but, days like today makes me miss telling him my secrets. 

If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together....

There is something you must always remember, 

you are braver than you believe, 

stronger than you seem,

and smarter than you think,

but the most important thing is,

No matter how far apart we are,

we will always be together.

- Christopher Robin 

Love 

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Conquers

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Distance 

25 things about me?

1. I hate utah drivers, they never put their blinker on... like come on your turning put your friken blinker on. 

2. I have to sleep with socks on at night or else i can't go to bed! i will seriously wake up in the middle of the night if i don't have socks on.

3. i have to sleep with the door shut. no question about it! 

4. I really have always secretly wished i loved running, i hate it with all my heart. ha

5. i have my whole wedding planned on pinterest, and i'm not even close to being engaged. 

6. I wish i was born in the 50's i would love it. 

7. I love to change the color of my hair. I wish i could wear wigs! 

8. I could live on the beach every single day. its my favorite place ever.

9. I really suck at writing on a blog. so I'm sorry if your reading this! 

10. One of my favorite shows is gossip girl. I wish i could be in that show.

11. I only like the snow up till new years after that it can disappear. 

12. I wish it was summer everyday.

13. I love that my birthday is 4 days after valentines day!

14. I love to play tennis! 

15. I Really want a second job. 

16. I wish i had really long hair! 

17. I'm a girl and i know how to drive a manual. 

18.I have a missionary in Uruguay ( Elder Draper) he has been out for 3 months! 

19. He is my best friend and i really miss him a lot more than i act like i do. 

20. I watch the bachelor every monday with my older brother and his best guy friends. 

21. I am running out of secrets to say. 

22. I really want to take a zumba class to get me in really good shape! 

23. One of my top favorite shows is new girl. i love jess. 

24. My middle finger on my right hand grows all weird cause the nail got cut off when i was lithe.

25. My best friends are Dallas lyman and Tiffany stokes don't know what i would do without those girls!  

Love 

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distance. 

LIFE AS WE KNOW IT.

Today felt like a pretty long day.

started out with hair school till 8:30.

then i went into work! till 12;30! tiff came with me so it wasn't to bad.

then we went to dallies and basically just talked about everything till 2 in the morning! 

I love my best friends i seriously have 

no clue what i would do with out them! 

I'm pretty sure we could have a book of all the funny things of what we say in just one night.

like tonight here are some of things that were so funny for no reason. 

1. look at this zit is like a mountain growing out of my neck.

2. please just let me pick it pretty please please.

3. You kind of had a lisp and mumbled when you said that whole sentence. 

4. Curtis has a beard... but he's a dog. oh my gosh he really does.

the list could go on and on! But i really don't know what i would do without these girls! 

they really are the best friends ever! love you girlys so much! 

Don't know what i do without you! 

I also got an email from nick this week! 

he is doing actually really good!

For how far apart we are, i still always feel like we are on the same page. 

which is weird because we have been separate for so long.

its crazy because i feel like we are closer than we have ever been. 

Which is actually a good thing! 

But there are days where i sure miss him so much! 

I'm pretty sure i am the luckiest girl to have such a great guy like nick. 

i don't know what i would do with out him either.

 shout out to my girls i love you tons, and shout out to man i love you more than you know it.

night. 

word g-man. 

People

People really never seem to amaze me.

You only really ever think a person would go so far before you realize that they have gone further than you ever thought they would. I never even knew one person could be so rude to another person. lets call them the evil step sister from cinderella. how on earth she can be mean all the time i don't understand. i feel like that is just a ton of work. Really just a waste of time too.

Also you are just hurting the whole entire family. i'm sorry step sister but you are a crazy BIOTCH!!!! to the max. there really is no other word to describe you. sorry for the language. 

so i decided i'm done dealing with your crap. 

and hurting everyone else too. 

i love this quote its perfect. 

  IT really just explains everything. sometimes you just have to be brave and take a chance in life.

wether that means, telling somebody the truth even though it hurts, or asking the guy at the gas station out on a date, or just saying something you never thought you would say.

you just need to take a risk. 

well thats my little brain explosion for the night. 

But, i am going to try and write a little story about me and nick for all you gushy love story fans. 

Lets start out from the begging..

Well thank you seminary for putting me and nick in the same class. 

thats where it all started.... 

Keep calm 

and 

carry on

love, jacqui