Standing In Circles

Sometimes i feel like i am standing in this small tiny circle.

and i am just standing there spinning in circles watching life fly past my eyes.

Sometimes i just wish i could make the circle stop spinning. 

Sometimes i just wish i could sleep and dream all day so i wouldn't have to deal with reality.

But if only you could really do that. 

But in all reality. 

I love that i can't stop the circle from spinning.

because to be honest it makes time go by so much faster.

Which makes life easier at some points.

This morning i was just thinking its crazy nick has been gone for almost 4 months. ( next sunday will be 4 months which is so crazy to me.) But it makes me so happy at the same time. I could just run in circles all day long. 4 months that is a long time if you really think about it! 

So its crazy how fast time really goes when your life is running in circles. 

But that is pretty much what life is. You are just either in the small circle standing there watch everyone around you move. Or you are in line with everyone moving and just keeps running in cirlces.

4 months down and counting.

Love 

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Conquers

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Distance

Music Keeps the heart beating.. Falalala

This how i feel right now! This band is seriously my new favorite band. i could listen to there music all day long. thanks to my friend dallie she seriously got me addicted. So Feel free to start listening, i love them.

Mumford and Sons

I will wait

Well, I came home
Like a stone
And I fell heavy into your arms
These days of darkness
Which we've known
Will blow away with this new sun

But I'll kneel down,
Wait for now
And I'll kneel down,
Know my ground

And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you

So break my step
And relent
Well, you forgave and I won't forget
Know what we've seen
And him with less
Now in some way shake the excess
Now I'll be bold
As well as strong
And use my head alongside my heart
So tame my flesh
And fix my eyes
A tethered mind freed from the lies

And I'll kneel down,
Wait for now
I'll kneel down,
Know my ground

Raise my hands
Paint my spirit gold
And bow my head
Feel my heart slow
'Cause I will wait, I will wait for you

Love 

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Conquers

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Distance

3 months and 5 days!

 Days like today, make me miss this guy more than ever. 

For just a couple reasons. 

(First thing is first, whoever reads this if you don't know who this is, well this is elder Draper! 

He is serving in the Uruguay Monte Video West mission, before he left on his mission we dated for a year and half? that is so crazy to even think, but i love him to death! And now he is serving the lord and being such an Amazing Missionary! ) 

anyways back to what i was saying.....

1. With everyone that has missionaries leaving, it just reminds me of the day he left ( and how it was probably the hardest thing i have ever done.) man i sure do feel for those girls and wish the best for them! 

2. I got a new job! which is so Accawesome! < ( pitch perfect) But getting something this exciting is never really as exciting as it was if he was here so i could tell him. It was just so different with him! Don't get me wrong I'm super excited for my new job! 

3. Sometimes i just wish i could call him on the phone, i just miss having that best guy friend! i got my girls they will always have my back, but its just different. not the same. 

4. I just miss having a boyfriend period. It was always so nice to know that when you were having the worst day ever or you just feel like crap, you could go to him in sweats and your hair stinks and you don't have make up on, and he says things like ( why are you so darn cute today babe?) Then for some reason that little thing always made you feel so much better. 

5. Holidays are harder too. I mean Who really Likes Valentines day anyways?? haha 

At the end of the night i think about him and i just have to tell myself that you know what it really will be all worth it in the end. I know he is out there doing what he is supposed to be doing! I know he loves it too! I mean look at that picture ^^^^ up there??? He is having the time of his life! I love going through this crazy journey together, that really nobody else will understand. Its kind of like our own little thing. Its Pretty crazy when i think that he has been gone for 3 months and 5 days! It actually went by fast! 

but, days like today makes me miss telling him my secrets. 

If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together....

There is something you must always remember, 

you are braver than you believe, 

stronger than you seem,

and smarter than you think,

but the most important thing is,

No matter how far apart we are,

we will always be together.

- Christopher Robin 

Love 

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Conquers

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Distance 

25 things about me?

1. I hate utah drivers, they never put their blinker on... like come on your turning put your friken blinker on. 

2. I have to sleep with socks on at night or else i can't go to bed! i will seriously wake up in the middle of the night if i don't have socks on.

3. i have to sleep with the door shut. no question about it! 

4. I really have always secretly wished i loved running, i hate it with all my heart. ha

5. i have my whole wedding planned on pinterest, and i'm not even close to being engaged. 

6. I wish i was born in the 50's i would love it. 

7. I love to change the color of my hair. I wish i could wear wigs! 

8. I could live on the beach every single day. its my favorite place ever.

9. I really suck at writing on a blog. so I'm sorry if your reading this! 

10. One of my favorite shows is gossip girl. I wish i could be in that show.

11. I only like the snow up till new years after that it can disappear. 

12. I wish it was summer everyday.

13. I love that my birthday is 4 days after valentines day!

14. I love to play tennis! 

15. I Really want a second job. 

16. I wish i had really long hair! 

17. I'm a girl and i know how to drive a manual. 

18.I have a missionary in Uruguay ( Elder Draper) he has been out for 3 months! 

19. He is my best friend and i really miss him a lot more than i act like i do. 

20. I watch the bachelor every monday with my older brother and his best guy friends. 

21. I am running out of secrets to say. 

22. I really want to take a zumba class to get me in really good shape! 

23. One of my top favorite shows is new girl. i love jess. 

24. My middle finger on my right hand grows all weird cause the nail got cut off when i was lithe.

25. My best friends are Dallas lyman and Tiffany stokes don't know what i would do without those girls!  

Love 

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conquers 

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distance.