What We All Want

Its true all we really want is love.
but just not any kind of love.
as much as we hate to admit it, we want the gushy cheesy bring me flowers,
tell me i am beautiful, and call me names like honey love.
We all want it.
As much as we say we don't we do.
Its even harder when you have had it, then its gone.
Because you think you will be fine, which usually you are.
But then there is just that one night where you realize how much you miss it.
You try to tell yourself that it is going to be okay and that you will figure things out.
But you really just don't know.
Then there is times where you really like someone,  and you just wish that they liked you as much.
You want them to want you as much, you hope that it will grow over time.
So you spend more time with them and just fall even harder.
Why can't it just be easy.
I miss everything about "us" and how everything was, but i just know its never going to be the same.
Which is really kind of sad, because most people said we were so great.
Its crazy to see how much people can change over time, what it can do to a relationship.
what distances can do to a relationship.
i just miss the idea of being in love.
i just want someone to want to call me when they get excited about something new.
i want someone to bring me flowers randomly.
i want them to know my favorite candy and bring it to me just because they know its my favorite candy.
I want them to kiss my forehead.
i want them to give me that look in the eyes.
i want to catch them looking at me in the corner of my eyes.
i want them to say " this is my girlfriend"
i want them to get jealous if i hang out with other people, because they want to be hanging out with me.
i want them to call me, babe, honey, sweetheart.
i want them to care about me just as much as i care about them.
i want them to be all in.
most of all i want them to want me.

just a blah...

My mind has seriously been running all day.
i really just shouldn't worry about it at all.
I just have so many mixed feelings going on i just seriously don't know what to do about it or how i even feel.
Because i just don't know how to say it.
I wish there was no games in life.
It seriously would make everything in life so much easier.
people wouldn't get hurt as much and we wouldn't have to deal with stupid things to happen in relationships.
I wish god could just show us our plan so we knew exactly where we were going, but we all the know the truth to that.
But isn't that why we came here, to go through struggles to figure out what we want in life.
I guess that is the truth of it. That life is hard and we wish things could come easy, but we know they aren't going too.
And the minute you stop chasing what you want in life it suddenly comes a lot easier than we think.
So i really just need to stop chasing because maybe it is chasing after me and i didn't even know it.

PEOPLE

People are just so annoying sometimes.
Seriously i just don't understand why people are so afraid to ask things.
like if you have a question don't just talk about it to someone else, just ask me it really is that simple.
Why can't people just be real with each other.
People are seriously so afraid of the truth, because they can't handle it.
Just grow up and suck it up. Sometimes it sucks but you already know the truth so what is so scary about actually hearing it.